the world is never complete

—Livia Meneghin

the

fog

and

doug

firs’

quiet

echoes

evergreen

as

i

drive

through

the

world

world

stems

from

weorold

(age

of

man)—

which

fails

to

hold

all

that

is

is

it

true

fearful

owls

miss

laughing

owls—

whēkau

white

faces

nesting

inside

never

never

(non

bastano

pochi

stocchi

d’erbaspada

penduli

dal

ciglione

sul

delirio

del

mare)

complete

complete

felling

evicts

the

waxwings—

wildfire

sparked

by

fireworks

chars

enough

as

it

is

it’s

not

circling

silver

pigeons

above

Boston

who

worry

if

there’ll

be

an

always

always

returning

to

Nanny’s

fig

tree,

spring’s

cardinals

ask

me,

who

are

you

becoming

becoming

unnests

me—

inescapable

and

brutal—

because

i

can’t

unknow

what

nesting

feels

like

like

every

day

last

summer

behind

closed

blinds

with

AC

blasting,

i

crave

distance

distance

goes

on

while

the

world

keeps

ending,

future

and

past

with

no

in-between

between

us,

reader,

i

miss

my

birthplace

aranci,

basilico

but

can’t

remember

its

birds

birds

and

more

commuters

more

luxury

apartments

more

male

trees

but

fewer

bees

and

and

i

plan

to

plant

zinnias,

lavender,

and

plums

in

my

future

home

home

on

a

day

of

rain,

i

water

my

succulents

with

coffee

grounds,

hoping

the

world

is

never

complete

it’s

always

becoming—

like

distance

between

birds

and

home

What Will Come

I.

Summer of drought-dead

grass—what if,

for all future months, the blinds

are always drawn, the AC

always on? I’m not prepared to exist

in a box.

 

II.

Are my houseplants overwatered,

or lacking sunlight? Slow deaths

make me wonder

if fate ever turns

around,

which can wear on a person

who frets over opening

the fridge at the thought

of week-old strawberries

woven with mold…

 

as if that mold did not

grow slow,

and with time.

 

A phone call.

The temperature near 91°.

What will soon come

for me is closer. At night I walk

and walk, still

sweltering—skin sticking

to shirt sticking—too many layers

 

and all—

III.

 

I’m not prepared to see

my grandmother’s skeletal face—

gaudy-blue eye shadow, that bright

red lip, and flat hair—

done all wrong

by men who never really knew her.

I escape into the wet

of a chilly afternoon, trying to avoid

everyone trying…

but family also needs

—they always need

forgiveness, tupperwared 

spaghetti, and more

of her time.

She is full from

our needing— 

the Catholic mass and us all together.

IV.

 

My wedges slush in the damp grass

as I approach the depression.

The dress coat I’m borrowing

from a crowded closet in her home

reeks of her cigarette smoke,

lifts her above ground.

I pull the black wool closed, wrap myself in

her spinach omelettes

and bedtime prayers

and phone calls during my lunch breaks

200 miles away

and her dream of a Sunday drive

in a cherry red corvette

and bending my knees lower each year

as her hugs got bonier and bonier,

yet were still all mine.

But what if trying 

to hold 

leaves me

nowhere

to go?

 

For now, we walk, 

her arm looped around mine, grasping.

And we find robin red breasts and zinnias.

We talk about what to make for dinner.

LIVIA MENEGHIN (she/her) is the author of the chapbook Honey in My Hair and the Sundress Publications Reads Editor. She earned a Writers' Room of Boston Poetry Fellowship, Breakwater Review's 2022 Peseroff Prize, and Second Place in Room Magazine's 2023 Poetry Contest. She earned her MFA from Emerson College, where she now teaches writing and literature.