the world is never complete
—Livia Meneghin
the
fog
and
doug
firs’
quiet
echoes
evergreen
as
i
drive
through
the
world
world
stems
from
weorold
(age
of
man)—
which
fails
to
hold
all
that
is
is
it
true
fearful
owls
miss
laughing
owls—
whēkau
white
faces
nesting
inside
never
never
(non
bastano
pochi
stocchi
d’erbaspada
penduli
dal
ciglione
sul
delirio
del
mare)
complete
complete
felling
evicts
the
waxwings—
wildfire
sparked
by
fireworks
chars
enough
as
it
is
it’s
not
circling
silver
pigeons
above
Boston
who
worry
if
there’ll
be
an
always
always
returning
to
Nanny’s
fig
tree,
spring’s
cardinals
ask
me,
who
are
you
becoming
becoming
unnests
me—
inescapable
and
brutal—
because
i
can’t
unknow
what
nesting
feels
like
like
every
day
last
summer
behind
closed
blinds
with
AC
blasting,
i
crave
distance
distance
goes
on
while
the
world
keeps
ending,
future
and
past
with
no
in-between
between
us,
reader,
i
miss
my
birthplace
—aranci,
basilico—
but
can’t
remember
its
birds
birds
and
more
commuters
more
luxury
apartments
more
male
trees
but
fewer
bees
and
and
i
plan
to
plant
zinnias,
lavender,
and
plums
in
my
future
home
home
on
a
day
of
rain,
i
water
my
succulents
with
coffee
grounds,
hoping
the
world
is
never
complete
it’s
always
becoming—
like
distance
between
birds
and
home
What Will Come
I.
Summer of drought-dead
grass—what if,
for all future months, the blinds
are always drawn, the AC
always on? I’m not prepared to exist
in a box.
II.
Are my houseplants overwatered,
or lacking sunlight? Slow deaths
make me wonder
if fate ever turns
around,
which can wear on a person
who frets over opening
the fridge at the thought
of week-old strawberries
woven with mold…
as if that mold did not
grow slow,
and with time.
A phone call.
The temperature near 91°.
What will soon come
for me is closer. At night I walk
and walk, still
sweltering—skin sticking
to shirt sticking—too many layers
and all—
III.
I’m not prepared to see
my grandmother’s skeletal face—
gaudy-blue eye shadow, that bright
red lip, and flat hair—
done all wrong
by men who never really knew her.
I escape into the wet
of a chilly afternoon, trying to avoid
everyone trying…
but family also needs
—they always need
forgiveness, tupperwared
spaghetti, and more
of her time.
She is full from
our needing—
the Catholic mass and us all together.
IV.
My wedges slush in the damp grass
as I approach the depression.
The dress coat I’m borrowing
from a crowded closet in her home
reeks of her cigarette smoke,
lifts her above ground.
I pull the black wool closed, wrap myself in
her spinach omelettes
and bedtime prayers
and phone calls during my lunch breaks
200 miles away
and her dream of a Sunday drive
in a cherry red corvette
and bending my knees lower each year
as her hugs got bonier and bonier,
yet were still all mine.
But what if trying
to hold
leaves me
nowhere
to go?
For now, we walk,
her arm looped around mine, grasping.
And we find robin red breasts and zinnias.
We talk about what to make for dinner.
LIVIA MENEGHIN (she/her) is the author of the chapbook Honey in My Hair and the Sundress Publications Reads Editor. She earned a Writers' Room of Boston Poetry Fellowship, Breakwater Review's 2022 Peseroff Prize, and Second Place in Room Magazine's 2023 Poetry Contest. She earned her MFA from Emerson College, where she now teaches writing and literature.